New Fic: Idle & Blessed, Chapter 2/20
Feb. 17th, 2013 01:13 pm
IDLE & BLESSED
by Rabid1st
Doctor Who
Ten/Rose
AU from “The End of Time”
Rating: Mature Eventually
Beta: Keswindhover
Warning: This is not a Ten2 story. He is gone, but, not forgotten, exactly.
Summary: The Tenth Doctor has been archived into a biometrically identical vessel. He's worked out everything but the impossible bits and now has to work out what to do next.
“I don't know exactly what a prayer is.
I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down
into the grass, how to kneel down in the grass,
how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields,
which is what I have been doing all day.
Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?”
~The Summer Day by Mary Oliver
Part One: http://rabid1st.livejournal.com/379479.html
The smelling salts worked a treat. His eyes popped open, burned like the dickens and started watering. He pushed Jackie away from him. Once the noxious vapors cleared his head, it took the Doctor .248 seconds to work out what had happened. Well, everything but the impossible bits and those could wait. He'd been archived. Successfully, it seemed, because .248 seconds was a respectable mental response time for a post-regeneration calculation.
Several glitches in his autonomic systems troubled him. The worst of it was, he'd become almost entirely subjective. External sensory information was practically nil. Also, he kept gasping for air. Of course, one heart meant no respiratory bypass. He could hear the echo of his pulse beating in his ears. Blood glurgled sluggishly through his veins. And everything tasted weird. He wondered if he would be able to adjust his sensory palette with a little practice once he'd sorted out the new nervous system.
There were apparent balance issues. He instantly regretted the attempt he made to bound to his feet. He propped himself somewhat upright and took stock of his surroundings. Rose lay nearby. Sky. Surf. Jackie bashing her phone on the sand.
“Right. Note to self. No bounding about,” he said. After a brief hesitation, he added, “At this juncture.”
Resorting to traveling on hands and knees, he scrambled toward Rose. But he couldn't quite reach her. She emitted a temporal field that would have easily incapacitated a full-fledged Time Lord. As it was, searing heat stopped him when he drew close enough to touch her. He jerked back with a yelp and reflexively jammed the sore fingers in his mouth. Horrible salty taste. He spat them out again, gagging as he turned to Jackie.
“Sh-Gah—she's burning up. Literally burning,” he said. “Can you feel it?”
Jackie gave up on abusing her mobile to put a hand on Rose's brow. “She's a bit warm, yeah.”
“A bit?” He squeaked. After a shaky breath, he let his head nod as he gave the problem some thought. “Right, then, I'm hypersensitive. Probably. Well—good. I mean, not, good, but less—what? Catastrophic.”
If Jackie couldn't feel the heat, it might not be life threatening to Rose. On the other hand, the forces at work could be outside human sensory range, like most radiations. Didn't mean they wouldn't kill you. Oh, he really shouldn't think about how many things could kill him. Radiation poisoning. Blood poisoning. Poison poisoning. Peanut allergies. Choking on a chip. Stop it. Rose needed him focused.
His hybrid physiology would be more attuned to any temporal energy. That made sense. He was, essentially, a unique creation, part human/part Time Lord. Eww. No. Don't think about the repulsive implications of the Meta-Crisis. Part Donna. Lovely, jolly, brassy Donna. He let out a breath slowly. Yes. Thinking of Donna made it easier to stomach this new form. And stomach it he must. He didn't want to experience the taste of bile again, not any time soon. That's the human experience in a nutshell for you—random fluid secretion. Gallifreyans had very efficient elimination systems. Waste not. Want not. But humans spurted something out of one orifice or another with alarming regularity. He'd have to get used to sweat, urine, bile, phlegm. Spit. Semen. Good Night, Moon, he hadn't thought of that. There was bound to be fluid exchange, eventually. How anyone could call that “getting lucky” was beyond him.
Still, no use crying over—well, whatever he'd be spilling, was there? Not milk, he hoped. Generally speaking, human males did not have active mammary glands. But he was part Donna and Donna was female, so it was possible he'd eventually start lactating. But, that was a worry for another day. He'd manage his bodily functions when the time came. Sooner rather than later, if the pressure under his navel were any indication of those things. He looked around for a suitable boulder or bush to duck behind in lieu of a loo. He supposed he must hide his excrement away, since the rest of them did. Assuming he was going to be stuck here, he'd need to resign himself to mimicking human social norms.
It wasn't like he hadn't had practice. Put some Time Lords in his position and they'd go mad in an instant. Or soon put Caligula to shame. At least he was properly housebroken. He'd been keeping up appearances as a human male for centuries. More or less blending in. He was without a doubt the best suited of his kind to this sort of archiving. He'd given being human a lot of thought, even taken the plunge once. Though, in retrospect, that hadn't gone well. And he only had the retrospect, having left his Time Lord essence behind in a pocket watch for that adventure. Still, Human/Gallifreyan—er—let's say, union, had always intrigued him. He'd even explored some of the possibilities presented by compatible physiology. There was no sense denying his curiosity had gotten the better of him from time to time. And, after he'd met Rose, he'd extended the limits of that curiosity well beyond mere mimicry. He loved her, to be forthright about it, and he almost didn't care who knew.
“Are you just going to sit there staring at her?” Jackie's accusing tone cut into his musing.
“What? I mean, no. No. No!” He caught himself up short, before he could say “no” again, sniffed and focused on Rose. One hand drifted to the back of his neck. He ruffled his hair. Then, he tentatively reached for her again, but quickly pulled back. "Jackie, I'm going to need your help. I want you to open one of her eyes for me.”
“What do you mean?”
“Eyes. Open,” he snapped, closing his own. He pinched the bridge of his nose with thumb and index finger. “Could I be any clearer?”
His exasperated tone put Jackie back on the defensive. She bristled, as she moved hastily to Rose's side.
“Look here, you bleedin' useless twig! So far you've dragged us across the universe, involved us in your personal war, abandoned us in the arse end of nowhere, cloned yourself and let the other one of you swan off with your ship. Rose tells me you're brilliant, but I haven't seen any sign of it.” Even as she berated him, she shifted around to gently lift her daughter's right eye lid. Fire swirled in the glassy orb she revealed. The sight caused Jackie to recoil. “Oh, her eyes! Wha's wrong with her eyes?”
Fear gripped his innards. The Gallifreyan part of his nervous system valiantly attempted to override a wave of human stress hormones, but failed to avert the chemical tide. It swept him into his first panic attack. Adrenaline coursed through his blood stream, triggering a host of reactions. His heart raced. Breathing and thinking became nearly impossible as his chest muscles tightened. Oxygen saturated blood flowed to his extremities, leaving his internal organs deprived. Fight or flight, he thought. It's an adaptive response. Just ride it out. Don't run. Don't run. Breath. He was shaking.
How did humans tolerate such an onslaught? No small wonder they were perpetually cranky. Not to mention incurably impulsive. He started a Venusian Aikido chant in his head. Go to your happy place, his teacher used to say, and he'd wondered what she'd meant. Now, he swallowed the lump in his throat and groped for a meditative calm. Slumping forward, he dropped his chin to his chest, so his head hung below his shoulders. In that position he took a few cleansing breaths. He'd have to take up Aikido again, or yoga or—or tax preparation. He could see why so many people turned to drug use, but he doubted it was an option he could tolerate.
“Doctor?” Jackie touched his upper arm. “Don't leave me.”
“Yes. No. I'm—just...Uh...thinking.” He lifted his line of sight until his eyes met hers. “This is bad, Jackie. She's channeling the Time Vortex. It's protecting her, but burning up her mind.”
“Well, you just stop it,” Jackie ordered, gripping his arm tighter and giving him a shake.
“Yes, I had thought of that,” he said. “But it would kill me. And I can't regenerate.”
“I don't care. She needs you. My Rose needs you.” Jackie glanced down at Rose's still form and her grasp on him slackened. “She crossed the universe to find you. She wouldn't stop. I pleaded with her, but...she just kept trying new things, alien things. When they built that cannon, I knew--,” her voice broke, “I knew she would go.” She shook her head and looked back to him. “But she's still my little girl. And you promised to keep her safe.”
The chemical roller-coaster took control again, slamming him through a few emotional hairpin curves. “Don't you think I know that?” he yelled, baring his teeth as he flung her hand away. Anger brought him to his feet, staggering a little, but too upset to notice. “This is why I left. To protect her. I did everything I could to protect them. It's not my fault they never listen. Nobody ever listens. I tried to save her. And Donna. And the other one. I tried to save all of them.”
But even as he denied his part in this tragedy, his new capacity for shame kicked into high gear. It was all his fault. His already over-developed sense of responsibility would be apologizing any minute. He always blamed himself, so why shouldn't other people blame him, too. At this rate, he'd end up a Church of Scotland convert. He stole little girls away from their homes, their mothers, and he encouraged them to become more like him. Reckless. Dangerous. Capable. Awe-inspiring. The stuff of legends. All too often his encouragement destroyed them. But nothing stopped Rose. She just kept coming, growing stronger. When it came to outsmarting him, she had proven to have a remarkable capacity to adapt. She was more like him than anyone else he knew, she was the one thing he believed in and so he'd always understood that she would find him again. Leaving Rose behind was not an option, as he'd told her many times. He just hadn't quite explained why.
As his anger ebbed away, he collapsed back into a seat on the sand. “I'm sorry,” he told Jackie. “I'll do what I can.”
He began patting himself down, emptying his pockets. The Handyman had made good use of his time alone in the TARDIS. Memory fragments told him Handy had pilfered a number of useful gizmos, not the least of which was a piece of TARDIS seed-coral. Now, that would make life much easier for all of them, one day, but not today. Today, he needed a far cruder piece of equipment. And, at last, his fingers closed around it. Crowing, he yanked it out into the open and waved it in triumph.
“Blood pressure cuff?” Jackie asked, assessing the heavy leather gauntlet he held aloft.
“Vortex manipulator,” he said. “Pinched it. Oh, yes!” Grinning madly, he snatched up his spare sonic screwdriver from the sand. He gestured at the extensive piles of loot around him. “Look at all of this booty. I was never a boy scout, or a pirate, well, not officially, but I came prepared. I thought of everything.”
“Even Rose in a coma?” Jackie sneered. “Do take time to gloat.”
“Sorry.” He blushed. “Oh, that feels weird. Blushing.” Like a tingle and burn all over his face. It went well with his slight sense of contrition. He coughed self-consciously and tucked the delight with himself away to savor later.
“Doctor, please, help her,” she said. Then, she nodded at the cuff. “Will that make her better?”
He opened his mouth to explain about the manipulator, took in Jackie's puzzled expression and shook his head. “It will help, I hope.”
Gritting his teeth for the ordeal, he edged close enough to Rose to place the device against her wrist. Unfortunately, his fingertips grazed her skin. She ate him whole. The energy surged like a breaching behemoth and took him. He fell into a maelstrom of churning power. His screams ripped the flesh in his throat. But he didn't care about the pain. He was a Time Lord again, for a second or two, as the Vortex digested him. Paradoxically, inside the storm, he felt more like himself. He could sense his position in time and space. Creation made sense again. It was a clockwork entity. Gears turned as they were meant to turn. He understood. Everything that is, was or shall ever be lay wanton before him. He could pick and chose what to spare or destroy. This was the ultimate temptation, to be a true God of Time. The Wolf could enter him, too. He and Rose would be Gods together. They could tread the paths of time and pop the bubbles of as many alternative universes as they liked. The Doctor and Rose, together forever, as it should be.
“I've got you,” Jackie said, as he fell backward into reality.
She'd wrapped her arms around his chest and wrestled him away from Rose. Desperate to return, he struggled to be free, but Jackie held on, even when his elbow slammed into her ribs. Luckily, he wasn't at his full strength.
“Ow. Bugger. You behave,” she said, slapping his shoulder. “This is for your own good. You've gone off your head again.”
He growled low in his throat and rolled over to shake her loose. She pinned him, her grip something out of Greco-Roman wrestling. He'd just realized he would need to kill her, when sanity returned to him. Going boneless, he lay still, panting. He turned his head a little to wipe a bit of spittle from his lips.
“Well, this is embarrassing. And blushing does not help anything as far as I can see. It's simply uncomfortable. Speaking of,” he said, as his breathing steadied, “you can get off me.”
Jackie didn't shift, at first. But, when he'd remained quiet for a bit longer, she let out a sigh and relented, rolling to one side. They both sat up, avoiding one another's gaze as they brushed at sandy clothes.
“This is what she goes through, is it?” Jackie asked on the heels of the strained silence. “Traveling with you? Utter madness all day long?”
“No. Not all day,” he said. “Sometimes we dance.” He caught her eye and smiled and they both chuckled away the tension.
“So? Back to it,” Jackie said, pushing up to her knees. He offered her a hand on the elbow.
“Right. You'll have to buckle the manipulator around her arm,” he said, nodding at the device. “Since I can't touch her. And, I'm sorry, but you'll have to come with us.”
“O'course I'm coming,” Jackie said, dismissively. Then, she cocked her head. “Where are we going?”
“I'm sorry, Jackie. So sorry. But, we can't stay here.”
“On a half-frozen beach in Norway? Too right we can't. We need to get Rose to a hospital or...”
“No, I mean. Here.” He pushed both hands down indicating the ground under them. “This time. This planet. Earth.”
“Whadda ya mean, Earth?”
“Uh, we are leaving this planet. And you have family here. Pete and—little, little—what's his name? Tony! You have a life with people who need you and...”
“Rose needs me,” Jackie interrupted him. “Right now, that's all I care about. She's my daughter.”
“I know, but, I'm not perfectly certain you understand...”
“Oh, you are so patronizing sometimes. You don't think I knew we might not make it back when I followed her? I knew we could get lost or die. But, she was determined to find you. So, I had to go with her. Even if it meant never seeing Pete or my Tony again.”
Suddenly, he was misty eyed. “She is your daughter,” he said, placing a hand to her shoulder.
Jackie gave him another pat. He was starting to like them. “We have to save her, Doctor. You tell me what to do and I'll do it. First, I buckle this thing on her arm. Then what?”
“Read off the numbers from the display. They will keep scrolling past.”
Jackie glanced down, tilting her head to read. “There's a six and a curly squiggle and some dashes,” she said, squinting at the manipulator. “Wish I'd brought my reading glasses. But then, you never expect to be programming doodads in space, do you? Thought I'd leave all of that up to you lot, but it just goes to show...”
“Try these,” he said, pulling a pair of spectacles from an inner pocket and handing them over.
Jackie slipped them on and exclaimed in delight. “Oh, that's loads better! What prescription you got?”
“Adjustable to the wearer,” he said, beaming at her. “Twenty-second century optics. Just around the corner.” He lifted a brow as he bobbed his head at Rose. “The numbers?”
“Well, I've lost my place, now, haven't I? Wait, there's the squiggle again.” She read the symbols and digits off to him one at a time. Clearing a space in the sand, he used a finger to draw circular patterns on the cleared patch, repeating after her as he did. “...sixteen, twenty-eight, zero seven, wavy thing, spiral, three, triangle...” He glanced up, frowning, at her. “Triangle? Do you mean pyramid?”
“It's spinning, so maybe.”
“Flat on the bottom?”
“Yeah. And a sideways eight and that's all. We are back to the squiggle six.” She shifted around to peer at the designs he'd drawn. “How is this going to help Rose?”
“That, Jackie, is a vortex manipulator,” he said, as he busily filled his pockets with all of the things he'd removed from them earlier.
She made an impatient noise. “So you've said. Tell me how it will help Rose for you to draw in the sand.” The shrill edge returned to her voice. She ran a hand along Rose's brow, smoothing back her hair. “Stop wasting time. Rose could be dying.”
“She's not. Not yet. And a Vortex Manipulator does what it says on the box. It manipulates the Vortex. And right now, the Vortex is inside of Rose. These,” he gestured at his circular patterns, “are calculations, written in my language. Using the coordinates you just read to me, I've calculated a trajectory. We are going to manipulate the Vortex out of Rose's head. Only,” he held her gaze with a solemn stare, “it's not part of this universe, which complicates things.”
“I don't understand a word of that,” Jackie sighed. “And I don't see why you always have to make things so complicated.”
He tried charades, acting out with his hands. “Right. Keeping it simple, time travelers use that,” he pointed at the manipulator, “to bounce off of the Time Vortex, a swirly sort of energy. They travel with it, like a surfer or a jet ski on a wave. But this Vortex isn't a wave. It is more of a—what? A well. It's just there in her head. We need to tap that well and use up the excess energy. Imagine Rose is a car with a full tank of petrol. We have to go somewhere to use up the fuel. Technically, we don't have to go. We could just send Rose, but we don't know where she will end up and I'm obviously not about to risk losing her, so, allons y.”
“Right. Enough explaining. Just get on with it.”
Squinting his eyes shut, he clutched at his hair for a second. He counted to ten. Not as slowly as he would have liked, because she yelped his name. “Doctor?”
“Still here,” he sighed. “Getting on with it. But I'm going to need your help. You know my ship? The TARDIS?”
“Oh, don't start again.”
“My ship?” He insisted. When she looked blank, he grew exasperated. “The blue police box?” Even when she nodded, he glared a moment longer before continuing, “She's not, exactly, a ship. She's a living being, linked to, drawing energy from, the Time Vortex. Like Rose is now. I program the TARDIS to tell her where to take me, by using various computer interfaces. But, for Rose, I'm using that,” he nodded at the cuff. “Or rather, you are.” Jackie looked completely confused. He waved a dismissive hand. “Never mind how it works. You see that mauve button?” Jackie nodded, moving her hand toward it.
“Don't touch it. Ever.” She flinched back at his hard tone. “That's the transmit control. Stay away from it. Don't. Touch. The mauve!”
“Finally, he starts making sense,” Jackie grumbled under her breath. She avoided his eye, looking out to sea. Probably so he wouldn't see her tear up, he expected.
“Jackie?” He spoke softly to call her attention back and sooth her feelings. “Trust me. Press the yellow input button and enter these coordinates: R'elsyncu—er, that is, wavy thing, fifteen...” He patiently recited the rest of the numbers and symbols required for reprogramming the manipulator. When Jackie finished entering everything, he peered past her to check her work. “That's it.”
“Now we can go?”
He glanced around to make sure he had everything. Then, he took a breath and nodded. “Press the green button. That's it. And take my hand.” She did, her fingers squeezing his. “Hold on to Rose with your other hand. Don't let go of us. When the numbers settle into a stable configuration, I will press the transmit button and, well, it will be a bit unpleasant. You might feel a little sick. It's not dangerous. But it will feel strange. There will be nothing but darkness for a second. No air. No sound. No light.”
“Doctor? I'm scared,” she said, tugging at him just as his free hand moved toward the control panel.
“Me, too,” he told her, then, realizing that was hardly reassuring, he gave her hand a squeeze. He pasted on what he really hoped was a confident smile. “Come on, it's not that bad. Like switching a light off and on again. Over before you know it. You'll have a bit of a headache is all.”
She nodded, smiling back at him. He pressed transmit and instantly regretted it. The universe slammed a lid down on him. A millisecond later, Jackie screamed. A clear sign they'd arrived. He drew a breath of fresh air into his starving lungs and took stock of their surroundings. They were still by the ocean. Brilliant. After all of that, they hadn't moved. He felt a flash of frustrated disorientation, until he glanced up and saw a long wooden dock and a city beyond it. That looked promising. They'd made it somewhere else, at least, and the air was breathable.
If his calculations had been right, this was Cignus Minor Three, circa 2785. The sky had the right tinge, pinkish with fluffy purple clouds. It was sunny. The sun seemed to be at the proper distance and exhibited appropriate signs of decay. His half-human tongue offered no further spacial insight. The air tasted like...what? Apples? He sniffed. Nothing on the wind but the scents of rotted fish and sea spray. It was eerily quiet. He held up a finger, then all of his fingers, and felt a slight eddy of cosmic gravitational pull, but no definitive information. No matter. There appeared to be a spaceport in the distance. So, wherever they were, they were closer to civilization than they had been a moment ago. And Rose felt cool where his wrist touched her.
He slid his hand around, until it rested flat against her arm. No burning sensation. No sucking undertow of awesomeness. Good. Great. He marshaled his mental reserves and took a shot at telepathy. He called to Rose, wondering if she would sense him mind to mind. Was he even telepathic in this body? The Vortex had drawn him in before, but that could be some type of hallucination. He gave her a moment, and then called again.
Rose? Can you hear me? Rose. Come back.
He sensed something. The something approached him. It was the size of a planet, and twice as fast. He braced for an impact, but it didn't hit him. Instead, it stopped and scanned him. He felt the assessment of a thousand pairs of eyes. He might have been on stage at the Old Vic, naked and encircled by a thousand critical wolves. The wolves found him wanting and sprang toward him. Something else batted him aside. Once again, he tumbled backward, landing on soft sand. This time Jackie wasn't holding onto him.
Rose stirred and spoke. “Is it you?”
It took him a beat to distinguish between his mental Rose and the one in the flesh, to realize he was hearing her voice, using his ears as well as telepathy. Her brown eyes were open and focused on him. He breathed out a long sigh. Tears blurred his vision. One splashed onto her hand, as he nodded an enthusiastic affirmative.
“It's me. Truly. Whole and complete in one body. Hello,” he said. Then, grinning madly, he gathered her into his chest.
She did not reach for him. He cradled her, rocking back and forth, his nose buried in her hair. She lay unresponsive in his arms, while Jackie patted them both and peppered them with questions. None of her worries registered as important. He didn't care what happened next. Couldn't be bothered thinking about the future. This was enough for now. He wanted to sleep like this, curled around Rose on the sand. It seemed like he'd been running for 900 years, without pausing for even a day. Finally, he could rest. It dawned on him that this might have been what the Ood had been talking about with the singing. We shall sing you to your rest. And what had 2005 Rose told him? Maybe it's time you went home.
“I'm home! Yes!”
“Is that a helicopter?” Jackie asked. The question and a strange buzzing broke into his reverie. “That humming noise?”
“Torchwood,” Rose said, pushing to be free of his hold. “Can you see them?”
He sighed and shifted back, releasing her. “Can't be. We're galaxies away from their influence. Centuries ahead.” But Rose was rolling to her knees. He stood with her, keeping her close by offering assistance.
She took his help, but only, he suspected, because she needed it. “What do you mean galaxies away? Where are we?”
“Ah, not quite sure, at the moment. What do you remember?”
She avoided his eye as she slapped sand from her backside. “I remember you leaving. After you promised you never would.”
She sounded angry and he wanted to claim he'd come back, but she'd find out soon enough. He never could keep things from her. “You brought me back,” he told her. “You and the TARDIS. Working together.”
“Me? I didn't do anything. I just passed out,” Rose said. “And woke up here.”
Was she feigning innocence? Or did she truly not remember? “Why did you ask if it was me?”
“I—I don't,” she frowned over that one, fingertips massaging her brow. “It just seemed like you. I can tell.”
“And you didn't even have to kiss me,” he said, letting some of his own ire show.
“That kiss was his idea. That's what he whispered in my ear, 'kiss me.' So I did. And I didn't know you'd run off as soon as my back was turned, did I?”
“I thought you might want some privacy.”
“You abandoned us to—what? What is going on?”
“Where are all the people?” Jackie said, repeating what he felt was a pertinent question and forestalling a fight. She'd been trying to gain his attention for a few minutes. “It's a bright sunny day at the beach. There's a city. Why are there no people? And what is that noise?”
Mouth half-open, he considered her questions. He looked up and down the beach. Nobody. Not a soul. The beach was deserted. And the boardwalk. And, as far as he could tell, the city. No horns honked. No smokestacks smoked. There were no planes in the air. No birds. Or bird-like beings. No vehicles, or boats, or strollers or fisherman. And now he'd focused on that droning, it was definitely—definitely what? Not a helicopter. Not mechanical. Organic? Insects, maybe.
His gaze darted toward the spaceport. For the first time, he registered the strings of brightly colored flags fluttering across every roadway. Red, gold and green banners. They appeared to be wrapped with silver filigree. A celebration? No! If the year was 2785 it was The Celebration! He checked the sky again. This was the Cigna System. If his calculations were correct, and he came first in manipulator maths, they had arrived just in time for the Wedding That Changed History! They should have landed in the middle of the biggest party this part of the universe had ever seen. But that would mean scads of people around them. Every dignitary in the surrounding twenty systems attended the union of the two greatest space-faring peoples of this era. The beach should have been standing room only.
He grabbed at Rose's wrist, twisting around her to read the Manipulator's display screen. “Oh, no. No. This is bad. Very bad. There should be people. Lots of...people.” He glanced up and back at the quiet city.
“That's what I said,” Jackie told him.
“Where are they?” Rose asked. He could feel her pulse quicken under his thumb.
“I don't know. But that sound is familiar. It's...”
Panic again. His throat clenched around a jagged lump. His tongue seemed too dry. Before he could make anything out of these instinctive reactions, Jackie screamed and backpedaled into him. Following the direction of her gaze, he saw his worst fears realized. Something was cresting the dunes, spilling onto the beach. A scuttling, silver-black army of legs and pincers and eye-stalks poured across the sands.
“Run,” Rose said, setting words to action.
He dug in his heels and spun her back into him. “We can't outrun them. Grab your mum.”
Rose reached out for Jackie and, as soon as she had a secure hold, he punched the mauve button again. This time there was almost no sensation at all, but the world melted and reformed. They were standing in the same spot on the beach only the sun had shifted in the sky. It seemed to be mid-morning. All around them, brilliantly iridescent butterfly people frolicked and laughed. They had willowy figures and gossamer wings. Several sipped sweet treats from long stemmed flower-like glasses. Those revelers close by, nodded in a friendly fashion, obviously used to strangers popping out of nowhere. Tiny personal transport pods darted across the sky, leaving vibrant contrails.
“Where are we?” Jackie gasped, completely missing all of the obvious signs that they were on the same beach.
“When are we?” Rose corrected, cocking an eyebrow at him as she waited for more info.
“Three weeks earlier,” he said. Puffing out a breath, he tried to relax. He dragged his free hand through his hair. His other hand refused to let go of Rose. “Residual energy in the device. Enough to skip us back to an earlier time.”
“How did you know that would work?” Jackie asked.
“ Fail-safe. Built-in. If you go forward, whatever you are trying to avoid still happened, enemies remember you, debts are accruing interest.”
“I mean, how did you know those bug things weren't here already?” She clarified.
“Oh,” he said. “I didn't.”
Jackie threw both hands into the air, completely exasperated.
“Three weeks?” Rose looked around. “But...there are so many people. That would mean...”
“All of this,” he confirmed, waving vaguely, “is going to disappear. Twelve billion people gone. They have less than a month.”
“How?”
“Digested,” he said, his fingers finding hers and curling around them. “All of them, flesh and bone and memories. Consumed by the K'anB'akiur Scourge. The thing is it should be impossible. The Scourge died out ages earlier. At least,” he amended, “in our former reality.”
“What are we going to do?” Rose said.
“Leave,” Jackie said flatly. She pulled at Rose's other hand and pointed toward a distant set of scaffolding. “There's a space port, right? We find a ship and leave.”
“Yes,” he agreed, casting a sidelong glance at Rose. He couldn't argue with that. He wasn't the Doctor anymore. He was just a man. They had no plan. There would be no regenerating. He was completely vulnerable. No TARDIS. Time to try caution on for size. “We should go.” When she lifted her questioning gaze to meet his, the hint of a smile tugged at the corners of his mouth. “Isn't that what people are supposed to do? Run away from trouble?”
“Other people,” Rose said, and he felt sure she was suppressing her own slight smirk.
“Smarter people,” he confirmed, holding her eyes.
“Not you two, then?” Jackie said.
A mad glee took hold of him and he grinned broadly. Rose beside him; trouble ahead. The urge to run swept down his body and he bounced up on the balls of his feet. The bouncing reminded him that he had to pee. He glanced around in some distress. For the first time in 900 years, he found himself wondering if butterfly people had bathrooms.
“Allons y,” Rose said, finally smiling.
Tightening his grip on her hand, he took off for the boardwalk. They weaved through the crowd, him towing along Rose, who kept a firm grasp on Jackie. Holding onto one another, that was the human way of surviving, right? He might adjust to this, yet.
END THIS PART
Part Three
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Date: 2013-02-17 10:03 pm (UTC)Looking forward to what comes next :)
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Date: 2013-02-17 11:43 pm (UTC)Rae
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Date: 2013-04-12 06:50 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-18 08:52 pm (UTC)ugh, i just want to cry because this brings back tons of memories. I'm really loving it. You writing matches the characters just fine and i sense a very nice story here. plus, it's ten/rose and it makes me so very happy to have something of them again.
looking forward to seeing rose getting used to him again and him getting used to being half human.
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Date: 2013-02-19 03:32 am (UTC)Rae
thanking you for your kind comments.
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Date: 2013-04-12 06:49 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-19 09:35 am (UTC)THIS.
Oh Ten, how I have missed you. And this brings him perfectly back to life. Complete with a superb account of him having to adjust to being a different species, with a whole new level of vulnerability. The technical-stuff is convincing and fascinating, the reunion is spot-on without being laboured or sentimental. And we are plunged into mystery and danger. No playing with Tony around the goldfish pond in this one. Big themes, big adventures, big decisions.
I'm lovin' it ! (PS, that icon of yours is irresistible).
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Date: 2013-02-22 05:54 pm (UTC)Anyway, yes, I had to handle the reunion with care, but Rose isn't done being catty with him. Still, I think it would be hard for either of them to stay mad with the other for long. And, mostly, that is because they would be swept into adventures immediately. Yes, I don't get the joy of goldfish ponds in fic. Well, I do, I think the title of this story rather speaks to the idea that life is precious and should be savored. But the title is also a joke that goes with the poem...Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?
Rae
who wondered what RTD saw for the two of them...obviously not raising organic chickens, because he did plan to give them a TARDIS, too.
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Date: 2013-02-19 11:30 am (UTC)I also found the idea of bleeding off the Time Vortex by doing a time/space jump a cool one. I've never seen anyone do it that way before. But it makes sense...pretty much every other time, either the Doctor siphons off the energy into himself or Rose herself (or the Bad Wolf) directs the energy into something. But with the Doctor being only half-Time Lord and Rose unconscious, neither of those options would make much sense (well, I suppose Bad Wolf could have taken over, but eh). I like how you handled it.
Of course, now I'm worried that the three of them are stuck in this alternate place and time! If they used up the Time Vortex energy making the jump, how do they get back? Obviously the Doctor wasn't sure that'd be possible, but I'd hate for Jackie to never see Pete and Tony again. But in the meantime...baddies to fight! I thought that it was the Macra at first, but they weren't really shiny and had to live in a specific environment, I think (which is why they were down in the fumes below Newx15 Earth).
Anyway...I'm so glad to see you writing again! YAY!
Hello, Suze
Date: 2013-02-22 05:44 pm (UTC)Okay, as you know, I didn't see us having Ten 2 in the first place, but, if he was part Doctor than he was bound to know what was coming for him. Hence, he doesn't react very much to the news when it comes. Also, he has time to pilfer while Ten does those long goodbyes. So, I figured he would fill his pockets with stuff, including a bit of TARDIS...then we have the removed coral scene and I think...HA! But, obviously, he would take a Manipulator, if Jack has one, figuring that no way would he be abandoned in one time or place.
When we had the bonus of the TARDIS blowing up, I thought, "What would cause that?" No way am I thinking "the TARDIS is sad" or it was the regeneration. I figured we would have some canon explanation, but when you think about it, we still haven't had any sort of explanation for why the TARDIS ended up in the cul-de-sac universe with Amy or why it exploded. So, I thought, maybe it was sending Ten home to Rose. Having already established a link with her, it might have easily used that link to "pocket-watch" him. But, that would put Rose back in some distress, too. And, voila, we need to bleed off the energy, without killing Ten...hence, the manipulator comes into play again.
I am happy that you are concerned about Tony and Pete. I don't want people to just forget about them, since much of Rose's Torchwood life will come into play and so will Jackie's higher standard of living and her loneliness and worry about her baby. But, I feel that Jackie is a simple person and, even after living in Pete's World, she might still feel that Pete isn't REALLY real. She would accept all of the wonderful things, and enjoy being loved and rich, but I feel she would treat the experience as a happy dream and somewhere inside be resigned that one day she and Rose would "wake up" and go home. Rose would have kept that idea alive in her, too, by constantly trying to return to the Doctor. And, Jackie may also feel that she gave Pete something to live for by leaving him with Tony. It was more of a joyful life than HE expected to have, too. So, while I think she loves Pete and Tony and misses them both dreadfully, I can see Jackie putting Rose first...as she does in canon.
There shall be loads more about the Doctor's new body and new status as an ephemeral being. Also, bodily secretions. LOL
Thank you so much for the insightful comments. Your feedback always makes me think about my writing choices. I love that.
Rae
Re: Hello, Suze
Date: 2013-02-24 02:25 am (UTC)The only part I'm iffy on is Jackie choosing Rose over Tony. Pete, yes, but her young son? I can't see that. Tony is still very young and helpless and needs his mother, while Rose is a grown woman who is more than capable of taking care of herself (esp given her work with Torchwood). Now, I'm not saying that she wouldn't have done exactly what she did in the moment, but I have to believe that as soon as things stabilize, she'd immediately expect the Doctor to find a way to get them home. And if he couldn't? Oof. That'd be bad. Really bad. I just can't see her doing anything except be desperate to get back home to her baby.
Re: Hello, Suze
Date: 2013-02-24 03:52 am (UTC)She either acted impulsively and is still doing so...or...she was okay with Tony being left with his father on the off chance that she dies/can never return. We can't know how much Jackie understood about Rose's mission to find the Doctor, but, Jackie definitely put Rose ahead of Tony in JE. However, I don't want you to think my Jackie doesn't love Tony and care about getting back to him. She does, indeed, feel that the Doctor will figure out something to make it all right in the end. I just don't think her inner reasoning is as fixated on getting back to Pete and Tony as yours or mine might be, despite his age.
BTW, the other reason to steal a manipulator is quite obvious...it takes centuries to grow a TARDIS...but if you have a vortex manipulator...then you can hop back, start the process and hop forward 500 years. So, you don't need all of that plasma cracking stuff that Donna spouted in her missing scene...you just need a working vortex manipulator and some seed coral. Sometimes RTD needlessly complicates things, the TARDIS blowing up, for example, and Ten 2. Le Sigh!
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Date: 2013-02-22 10:14 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-22 05:30 pm (UTC)I shall look forward to your more informed thoughts on the chapter. Glad to see you happy dancing though.
Rae
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Date: 2013-02-22 11:39 am (UTC)Beautifully detailed in every regard.
Thank you.
Lisa
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Date: 2013-02-22 05:28 pm (UTC)I've been reading your published piece and I love it. But that should come as no surprise to you, as I've always enjoyed your brisk way with a phrase. :grin:
Nice to see you here as well as in email form. Oh, and the newest idea you've had sounds grand, but more like a novella than a short story.
Rae
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Date: 2013-02-24 11:45 pm (UTC)Just some quick impressions:
1. Typo during panic attack? Breath => Breathe?
2. Venusian Aikido! Rah! Shout out for Three! I've a few tabs open on JustinTV and Pertwee just used it!
3. "Don't. Touch. The Mauve." Yay, Nine!
4. As everyone has been telling you: EXCELLENT characterizations. I absolutely see and hear Ten, Jackie and Rose. Really nice visiting with them.
5. Technologically dense, but effective. Fascinating.
6. "Kiss me"! Well, that would explain some things!
Ta for now. I'll try to comment again soon, after I reread both parts in order. Thanks for staying with Ten & Rose!
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Date: 2013-02-27 12:31 am (UTC)1. Must go fix that. I have no spell-check for some reason. My computer is still glitchy and that feature isn't working, so my poor beta-babe was seriously overworked.
2. Oh, I do so love Three and I figure we can draw a bit of a line through him, because he was also a more Earthbound Doctor.
3. And, of course, Nine is there, too. Part of the "Three-Fold Consciousness." But only a little bit, because mostly this is Ten we have saved to his body.
4. Thank you! I love hearing it again. They are definitely talking to me. As usual, it is hard to get Ten to shut up.
5. Yes, not much help for that if I was going to get on with things, I didn't want to spend chapter and chapters explaining, so I will be dropping in more info as we go along, now that the big stuff is out of the way.
6. I thought it might. :grin:
I can't help staying with Ten/Rose, even if nobody else cares, they should have a nice finish.
Thanks for stopping by and for leaving me such lovely feedback.
Rae
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Date: 2013-04-12 06:51 am (UTC)Well it actually took three days
Date: 2013-02-24 11:52 pm (UTC)First, I'm beginning to wonder about Jackie-when we first meet her she seems so painfully domestic but she came back in JE and I am beginning to wonder if it is not just for Rose. We start out thinking that Rose's adventuring spirit is only from her dad but maybe Jackie does not have far to go before developing a taste for it on her own. I am still not sure if she would leave Tony, but I can see her finding all sorts of rationalizations to follow Rose just a little longer when it could be she wants to get in on some of the fun. Think Donna with more baggage. Also, it looked like Mickey had become almost an adopted son to her in the interim. She lost him and now might lose Rose, that might affect her thinking.
I am glad you chose to throw them into an adventure, even if that means two years of waiting for new chapters and having WIP angst. Just please oh please don't give up or lose your computer or get eaten by the Ravenous Bugblatter Beast. That was one of the things that irked me about JE and in a much lesser way with your Wild Geese story. The Doctor loved Rose enough to give up adventuring for her, but one of the things that made them a perfect match is that she never asked him to, or even wanted him to. This is one of the few areas I disagree with you. The Rose who tested out the dimension cannon would have seen no benefit to staying in Pete's world with either Doctor, settling down was a bug not a feature. She loved the adventures and she loved The Doctor and was blissfully happy that she did not have to choose between them-then RTD copped out and made her choose neither, epic fail! They should have kept BP on through two of the specials showing her aging with implied adventures offscreen, then have her die offscreen giving the Doctor a good excuse to go bat crazy. The Rose haters would only have had to live through two more hours of Rose but RTD would have kept emotional integrity and Eleven would have an excuse to move on.
A few "hmm, I wonder," questions. In JE Ten.2 said he had only one heart and would not regenerate, but we now know that does not necessarily correlate. River Song has less Time Lord DNA than Ten.2 even with some Donna thrown in. Wouldn't it be bizarre to have this be like a messed up regeneration that just fixes itself the next round. Also, the two Tens reminds me of the Buffy episode where Xander is split into two people. I think both halves were happy to be reunited and neither was subsumed by the other. It makes me wonder if Eleven feels like something is missing or if that is part of the reason Ten flipped out, because of losing part of their "soul". I know, canon will never address either question and I soooo do not write fiction (or anything else for that matter) but they seem to be taking a lot for granted in this series. I really think some of these careless choices should come back and bite the characters in the butt sometime.
Anyway, loving your story so far. I am looking forward to the next installment at least as much as the start of series 7b although I don't know if that is saying much.
Re: Well it actually took three days
Date: 2013-02-25 12:30 am (UTC)This is one of the few areas I disagree with you. The Rose who tested out the dimension cannon would have seen no benefit to staying in Pete's world with either Doctor, settling down was a bug not a feature. She loved the adventures and she loved The Doctor and was blissfully happy that she did not have to choose between them-then RTD copped out..
This doesn't disagree with me...in fact, this is my position exactly. I don't think Rose meant to take Ten home with her. She meant to continue traveling with him. I am completely certain that she felt they were just dropping off her mother. I am now wondering what made you think I felt that Rose would settle down and stop adventuring? Surely, I never said anything like that, so there must be some place where you picked that idea up in the writing.
I wonder if you are reading into my Ten position on things, because we know that HE feels he must settle down to be good to Rose. And I think he was preparing to do just that, when he was divided. Perhaps, you found a problem with Wild Geese, simply because I didn't go on the next morning. I always assumed that Ten and Rose would be causing trouble for Torchwood as soon as the sun came up. Much of this story is what would have happened had RTD kept the Rose/Doctor love alive. It is RTD that seems to somehow, against all reason, believe that Rose isn't going to keep on risking her life and saving worlds. But he never supports that in canon, except, perhaps, when Jackie points out that Rose will change into something not human. But even RTD tried to give them a TARDIS. Though, for the record, I don't count that gift. That isn't why I gave them a bit of coral. I did it because they would, of course, want a TARDIS, and it is completely possible to grow your own if you have a Vortex Manipulator...none of that cracking the plasma nonsense needed...for shame, RTD!
I am ALL for Rose dying out in space. It would have done the Doctor a world of good to face her mortality. I think it would have been far more in character for both of them to face it. And yes, keeping BP through the specials and having them go out together would have been grand. Eleven would have had good reason for his false cheer, too.
Personally, I think that RTD was too attached to Rose and couldn't bear to lose her. But, with his failing that, archiving Ten is another idea that works. You are correct about the split Xander idea, that's what I was thinking, that Ten split when Ten 2 arrived. And after that moment neither Ten is complete, and we see lots to support that in canon, with Waters of Mars, especially.
The one heart things is from the Book Canon...there is a trilogy, I think, where they link the ability to regenerate to the second heart. Total nonsense in my opinion, but RTD used a lot of the book canon in his work, and so he gave it life. But, as you note, Moff throws that idea out with River. I am actually more in line with Moff on this one. I think exposure to the Time Vortex is what makes Time Lords out of Gallifreyans. That's from television canon, after all. The question coming from Disheveled, through River, to this story...is...what does exposure to the Time Vortex do to humans. Rose seemed to come out unscathed, while the Doctor died..and River/and my Susan were changed in vitro.
How is the TARDIS connected to regeneration? Who closed the TARDIS door and trapped Donna inside? And why do all time lines lead to Donna? Was it to get Rose a good man? That seems a very odd reason indeed? All of these questions and a few others will hopefully be answered. Because, you are right, those careless choices should come back and bite the characters. I would never leave so many plot holes. They offend me. :grin:
Glad you came back to tell me how you like this story. And I am working away at the next part. So...hopefully, less of a wait this time.
Rae
Re: Well it actually took three days
Date: 2013-02-25 01:53 am (UTC)If they had to go with a story line which put Rose choosing to go with the human Doctor they needed to show us that the splitting of his soul left him with the parts of the Doctor she fell in love with. That would have taken at least three episodes to spell out dramatically. Usually RTD gives us that progression. I can picture Moffat giving us a voice over about why Rose chose the way she did but RTD usually does better. The way I see it there were four levels of choice, the most in character would be staying with the TL Doctor, second, staying with both but slowly growing to love the human version-especially if TL Doctor had turned into a git, third, giving us a voice over telling us that #2 had happened or fourth-and worst-doing what RTD did. No explanation, no development, just magic human Doctor fix.
As far as the regenerating thing goes I think RTD had more of the Time Vortex idea also rather than the two hearts thing. Jenny had two hearts but no exposure to Time Vortex. She was brought back to life by green glowy terraforming gas rather than by gold glowy regeneration-face changing power. This leads me to think she had no regeneration ability in spite of having two hearts. Of course wasn't RTD planning on killing her completely only to have Moffat request her survival? In that case regeneration would have been easier as it would give us actress flexibility.
On another note, my husband loves it when I read your stories, he gets the benefit : )
Ah, I see. Yes, I was making do with canon.
Date: 2013-02-25 03:27 am (UTC)Had I been in charge instead of RTD, I would have simply had the scene where we sent everyone home, then I would have had Ten follow Rose to Pete's World Universe for her lifetime. I would have created ELEVEN, much as he was created, actually, in an explosive scene...but mine would have been because the TARDIS was returning to our universe...and Ten would be in there dying...Rose having died after a long life of adventuring in the other universe. That would have allowed all of the Ten/Rose lovers to do what the Ten2 people are doing now. I assume...only with the REAL Doctor.
Obviously, if I could have had Billie Piper for FOUR episodes, I might have had her stay here and travel with Ten and Donna or just with Ten, since Donna would have been okay with going home...in my show.
Jenny is an interesting case. Yes, she was saved by Moff, not RTD. So, it is hard to say what RTD intended there. Possibly just that she was renewed by the life energy. She doesn't properly regenerate. But then, she is a short lived artificial soldier, rather than an actual offspring. It is hard to say what she would go on to do. But I do think that RTD tended to err on the side of everyone having adventures, too, which, again, makes his Rose needs a human Doctor to settle down with idea...oddly inconsistent. Rose never wanted any such thing, as far as we can tell from the canon. She did have more of a fixation on the Doctor than some other companions, but she also seemed very concerned that he was HIM, which Ten2 is not...because he tells us he has the rough speech of Donna.
I think RTD summed it up when he had Ten say, "Aren't we all?" to the idea of making do with a lesser life with Mr. Temple.
Rae
Re: Ah, I see. Yes, I was making do with canon.
Date: 2013-02-25 04:07 am (UTC)Boy, what a depressing summary of 4.5 years of storytelling-"yes we're all just making do"
Re: Ah, I see. Yes, I was making do with canon.
Date: 2013-02-25 05:48 am (UTC)Ack! An edit!
Date: 2013-02-25 04:04 am (UTC)The interesting thing for me is that RTD goes out of his way to convince us that Ten 2 isn't like the Ten Rose fell in love with...there is the Dalek killing solution, which is just odd to me in context, and then there is the kiss and the ability to, maybe, tell her he loves her. And finally, there is the huge interaction with Donna parts of this. But then, to me, much of those same interactions tell me that the Doctor that is leaving is not right in the head, either. And he goes on to show that to be true in the specials. And so...I switched to the idea of "The Pony for Christmas." That is that RTD would find a way to reconnect his two parts of Ten into a whole at the end. It thought that there was no way, given a second shot at Billie, that he would screw this up.
It is old school canon that the Doctor's assorted regenerative personalities are archived in the Matrix. Additionally, River is archived into the Library computer and we learn that the TARDIS has archiving equipment re: pocket watch tech on-board. So, the Doctor could easily be downloaded. Thus this story was born...to answer some of our questions. And also, to save Donna and restore her memories, because that was just wrong.
Happy your husband is happy. :grin:
Rae
Re: Ack! An edit!
Date: 2013-02-25 04:10 am (UTC)Re: Ack! An edit!
Date: 2013-02-26 08:27 am (UTC)Re: Ack! An edit!
Date: 2013-02-27 12:38 am (UTC)2) RTD lost a valuable resource in Catherine Tate..I mean, Donna could have easily taken over for Sarah Jane in a spin-off...or Jack at Torchwood and changed either show in a positive manner. And, future fans are going to want her to return.
3) Most of all, it wasn't necessary and went against what we knew of Donna to assume she would want to travel with him forever...so...that's just the worst kind of writing mistake...to change a character to suit your plot. I make allowances, for the might of the Time Lord mind racing through her, infecting her with hubris...but still...it all seemed to underscore that Ten was a changed man, to me.
And thank you again for your lovely remarks about my writing. I'm all aglow over here.
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