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Every day I’m shuffling. Like it or not. Sore feet or not. Shamans dance. We shuffle. We sway. We face right. We face left. North. South. East. West. Never mind my twisted joints, my muscle spasms…my lack of rhythm…I just keep moving. To live is to suffer. Or so the Buddhists tell us. Life doesn’t wait for you; it is like the city bus in that respect, and in many others. Life. Death. Sick. Well. Happy. Sad. The wheel of life turns on and on. A shaman turns in imitation of that wheel, around her group, her tribe, measuring out the circumference of the sacred circle. We bless endeavors and spaces. We pray. The circle was the first church, according to those who’ve studied these things.




It was a shaman who designed Prehistory’s medicine wheels. Like Bighorn, above, they were drawn in the sand, often outlined with small stones. Or majestic ones, in fact, because Stonehenge might well be such a sacred circle.

But a circle is, also, by its very nature, exclusive. One day you’re in and the next day you’re out. Who likes them odds? What if you feel unworthy at your core? What if you are not the same as everyone else? What about those who exist outside the blessed space? Are they unprotected? If we are us, then they are them. But the universe is a whole thing, one thing, though it has many parts. Shamanism teaches us there is nothing outside or beyond creation. No us. No them. No space that isn’t blessed and safe and sacred. The Great Everywhere Spirit is everywhere.

So why circle at all?

We circle to remind ourselves that life is about wheels not walls. There are no corners. We cannot hide. There is no way to get lost and forgotten forever. When you move in a circle, whichever direction you take leads you back to your starting place, back to yourself. We have met the enemy and they are us, according to Pogo. But then, we quite like us, right? We always have the best ideas. If only everyone else could be part of us. It has always been the job of a Shaman to define the tribe, to set the parameters of the circle, but it is not coincidence that a medicine wheel in sand is easily erased and recreated. I move my feet as I pray, because I know someone is out there waiting to have a circle drawn around them.

This has been an entry for Real LJ Idol: Topic 1 To Find All The Entries For This Topic CLICK HERE!

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Date: 2011-10-19 05:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thisficklemob.livejournal.com
Beautiful, Rae. Absolutely stunning, all of it.

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Date: 2011-10-19 05:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you, Caia! I'm glad you liked it. It marks a departure for me, talking about my personal life. I have to stop myself from over tweaking.

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Date: 2011-10-19 05:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] auntiesuze.livejournal.com
That is absolutely stunning. You will *kick ass* at this whole LJ Idol thing (which I did check out a bit - very neat idea!).

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Date: 2011-10-19 05:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thanks for the vote of confidence. I'm feeling very insecure, as I generally do in a new situation. And I'm not used to talking about my personal life online. I think I am an awful blogger, so we will see how it all goes over with the voters. But I'm happy that you like it, that means a lot to me. I thought maybe my regular readers would be all..."What is THIS?"

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Date: 2011-10-19 05:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] myemmie.livejournal.com
I really enjoyed this, Rae, and I'm so glad you're getting back into writing - for the obvious selfish reasons, but for others as well. I know that you don't typically speak of your shamanism in your journal, which is understandable, but every time that you do, my heart flutters just a little. I know I've said it before, but I would love to hear more from this side of you, as a teacher/guide, or simply as one who throws her ideas out into the ether. If you are comfortable with and able to do so, you will have at least one dedicated follower in me. :)

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Date: 2011-10-20 02:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thanks so much for your continued support of my alternative (read: Non-fiction) side. I'm happy to hear that you are looking forward to more of the real life musings about Shamanhood. And I'm making your heart flutter? *quickly gets you a chair*

:grin:

I am clearly not certain about this direction as yet, but so far it seemed to go well with this topic. I told my SO what the first topic was and he asked me to repeat it. Then, he laughed and said, "Well, that one is practically made for you." I am thinking they will want me to write about turnips next and I will be completely blocked.


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Date: 2011-10-19 08:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wolfden.livejournal.com
Beautiful.

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Date: 2011-10-20 02:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you.

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Date: 2011-10-19 08:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] noodledays.livejournal.com
your imagery here was really lovely.

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Date: 2011-10-20 02:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you. I am happy to hear you enjoyed it.

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Date: 2011-10-20 12:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] susanb03.livejournal.com
I move my feet as I pray, because I know someone is out there waiting to have a circle drawn around them

I especially liked and resonated with this line.

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Date: 2011-10-20 02:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
My circle is always drawn around you and yours Susan, as I'm sure you know. Hopefully, the prayers will be answered, this time, with a resounding success.

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Date: 2011-10-20 12:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blythe025.livejournal.com
I love your first paragraph, really drew me in.

I like your thoughts on the circle. If a circle is big enough, it can include everyone. :)

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Date: 2011-10-20 02:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
I am happy to hear that you enjoyed the pacing of the first paragraph. I had hoped to create a sort of drawing in rhythm, similar to the drumming and footfalls of a dance circle.

And you are right, we can include everyone. Thank you for leaving me some feedback. It does help build my confidence.

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Date: 2011-10-20 11:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] m-malcontent.livejournal.com
I enjoy the philosophical bent of this..good work.

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Date: 2011-10-21 03:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you. I appreciate you taking the time to comment.

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Date: 2011-10-21 03:08 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] shadowwolf13
Thank you so much for a lovely entry about your religions beliefs. It's a wonderful entry.

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Date: 2011-10-21 03:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
You are more than welcome to it. And it is very nice to see someone of a similar sensibility reading my work. Thank you so much for leaving such a lovely comment.

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Date: 2011-10-22 05:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] whipchick.livejournal.com
Great use of the circles as both a visual metaphor and a structure for your piece.

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Date: 2011-10-22 09:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Oh, I do enjoy a reader that likes structure. It is something that I put a lot more attention into than is probably necessary. A hold over from my days as a poet, I suspect. As is my tendency to write in fragments rather than complete sentences.

Thank you so much for your insightful comment.

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Date: 2011-10-22 06:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wrensgirl.livejournal.com
I like the concept of life being a bus. That line just really struck me.

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Date: 2011-10-22 09:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
You know, I wrote the main idea of that sentence in my first draft...and then thought...life is a lot like a city bus in many respects...it is not under your direct control, you are there with a mix of people from assorted stations of life and ages all going to different destinations, along a similar path...and so on...

Glad to hear the concept struck you as well.

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Date: 2011-10-22 07:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] roina-arwen.livejournal.com
I like the undertone to this, very down-to-earth if you will. Well done.

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Date: 2011-10-22 09:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you.

Of course, I am not sure I will stick to this tone. I saw that can put off some voters, but I tend to be flippant most of the time. Still, this is a part of my life that I felt I could share on this topic.

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I quite enjoyed that

Date: 2011-10-22 05:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cloworora.livejournal.com
That was a very good read. Kudos.

Re: I quite enjoyed that

Date: 2011-10-24 03:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you. I'm happy to hear that you enjoyed it.

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Date: 2011-10-23 12:18 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] vik_thor
Thank you for sharing this. I like your reasoning for why humans use circles so much.

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Date: 2011-10-24 03:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
The circle is a very forgiving shape. Thanks for taking the time to leave me a nice comment.

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Date: 2011-10-23 04:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ashgaelsonaria.livejournal.com
great explaining

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Date: 2011-10-24 03:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thanks. I always have to stop myself from over explaining, I'm happy to hear this was just enough. :grin:

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Date: 2011-10-23 06:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] myrna-bird.livejournal.com
Interesting and some new information for me. Thanks.

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Date: 2011-10-24 03:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you. It is interesting the things we learn from reading blogs, isn't it?

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Date: 2011-10-24 02:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cacophonesque.livejournal.com
This was so nice. I loved the reflection on how circles can include and exclude--the tension between that, and the final resolution that circles can be redrawn.

Very beautiful perspective.

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Date: 2011-10-24 03:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
It is always nice to get a comment from someone who considers the structure of the piece. Because I was a poet first, I am a writer who does pay attention to the structure of what I'm writing, the actual word usage and placement and such. Most readers don't seem to notice, but when it pays off for someone I am a bit gleeful.

Thank you for the lovely feedback.

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Date: 2011-10-24 11:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] basric.livejournal.com
Very well done

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Date: 2011-10-25 05:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you.

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Date: 2011-10-25 05:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] phoenixejc.livejournal.com
Beautiful entry!!!

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Date: 2011-10-26 12:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you. I'm so pleased that you liked it.

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Date: 2011-10-25 06:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kittyfaelis.livejournal.com
Very moving. Thank you for sharing.

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Date: 2011-10-26 12:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
And thank you for leaving me feedback. I truly appreciate it.

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Date: 2011-10-27 12:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] basric.livejournal.com
Lovely, well written.

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Date: 2011-10-27 07:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you. I'm happy that you enjoyed dropped by again.

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Date: 2011-10-27 03:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pixiebelle.livejournal.com
I liked this. Of all the takes on the topic, I found this one to be very inspiring and helpful to me at this time. It's like... you understood some of the stuff in my head.

Very nice.

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Date: 2011-10-27 06:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you. What a lovely comment. I'm so happy that I could offer something to inspire you. I love helping people sort through the stuff in their head.

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Date: 2011-10-27 06:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sweeny-todd.livejournal.com
oh! some beautiful images here - and it made me think. This can only be seen as a Good Thing.

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Date: 2011-10-27 06:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
Thank you. I'm glad you found my imagery beautiful and thought inspiring. BTW, I loved the musical about you.
:wink:

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Date: 2011-10-27 08:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alycewilson.livejournal.com
I like this insight into your practice. How did you become a shaman?

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Date: 2011-10-28 02:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
I'm happy to offer the insight.

I was sort of grandfathered in to Shamanism, literally, my stepfather's father Little Bird was a medicine man and my brother's wife was a seer. So I had some early training in spirit contact and once my mind was open to the ideas, there they were. :grin: But I didn't even realize that I was practicing Shamanism until I took a class on prehistoric religions in college. That was were I discovered that my only peculiar brand of spirituality wasn't as oddball as I'd previous believed. It simply wasn't addressed often in the modern world.

If you want to learn more about Shamanism you can go to http://www.shamansociety.org/about.html

Though I am not a member of that society, nor do I have a public practice, they are dedicated to moving Shamanism forward with modern culture.

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Date: 2011-10-27 06:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bonnie-rocks.livejournal.com
Reading this was refreshing :)

~*::Meow::*~

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Date: 2011-10-28 02:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabid1st.livejournal.com
I am glad to hear that you are refreshed. Thanks for leaving me such a lovely comment.

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