Morphine Drip Now, Puhleez! K? Thnx!

[rabid1st]

I went to the rheumotologist yesterday. He lives in another town, about 25 minutes drive away. My primary care doctor doesn't like me to drive to destinations more than 15 minutes from my house. This means I must take someone with me on longer trips so that they can drive me home. Yes, it does suck. But not as much as being stranded 25 minutes from home because you are unable to drive back.

Most of the time I am sensible about this, even if I am feeling okay. I just let go of my need to control and let the other person drive, because I know that driving hurts me. But yesterday, I was having a good day and got cocky and drove too long and now I am paying the price. Wrenching pain all night long in my lower back and hips and shoulders, along with crushing pain in my feet. The wrenching always reminds me of sharks feeding. You know how Natural Documentary sharks sort of sink their teeth in to a hunk of meat and shake it? It's like that in my shoulders and elbows. But the worst thing is my back which feels like a wrestler has his booted foot in it and is shoving hard. Oof! Oof! Oof! I was in bed until 5:00 pm but even resting was hurting me and my SO was all "You have to eat something", so I got up and tried moving around a bit.

Now, I'm trying whining on the internet while the muscle relaxers kick in. Nothing seems to help though. Morphine? Puhleez.

Comments

[thisficklemob.livejournal.com]

Aww, poor Rabid.

I really hate the level of pain where even resting hurts. It's like insult + injury pain.

[mrs_roy.livejournal.com]

Morphine is good for a bit, but it's only ever temporary. I hate having a central line, that's the worst part! It totally sucks for you Rae, if I can do anything to make you feel better, please just ask :)

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

Truthfully, I would go through a lot to avoid the opiates. I've been through drug withdrawal once in my life and that was once too often. And I know that once I started pushing that button I would probably keep at it. So, I go with the blunting of the pain rather than obliterating it. Though, days like today...I think I would welcome some oblivion.

Still, I keep telling myself it always clears up again in a few days. If I thought it wouldn't I would be seriously screaming about it.

And your porn was quite helpful last time. But this time I don't think I want to sit up that long.

[auntiesuze.livejournal.com]

Oh, ow. :( *gentle hug*

[nightbeast.livejournal.com]

Will send some ruby wand healing. I suspect it will intensify the pain for a bit, but the flare will be shortened.

Also, write down this experience and put it in your claim for disability.

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

I do cover this problem as it is quite pronounced and I should know much better than to attempt to drive even if I am having a good day.

Thanks for the ruby wandage. It did appear to help a bit, though the flare was quite intense...as you noted, it didn't last as long as usual. Jan is also feeling better though he still hasn't found his amethyst yet.

[ke0001.livejournal.com]

I hope you'll feel better soon!

Nobody should have to live with pain but unfortunately a lot of people do. I hope it'll be more manageable soon. Or (if you have periods of being pain-free), that you'll have such a period soon and for a very long time. Hang in there.

K.

[astitchintime-9.livejournal.com]

Pain really scrambles up one's life. Wishing you ease!

[crimedoc1.livejournal.com]

Wish I could help in some way. Back pain is one of the worst kinds (although it ranks below migraines on my list) and I've dealt with it enough to be able to sympathize completely. I second nightbeast - document this for your disability claim!

Feel better very soon.

[keswindhover.livejournal.com]

I hope you're feeling better today, Rae. Side pain and all.

*smooches*

[glory_jean]

Gah, I keep forgetting to check your LJ and I couldn't do anything sensible like ask if you mind me friending you.

Anyway - I didn't realize it was the dreaded fibro you suffering from. :( My DH has the illness from hades also. So **HUGSHUGSHUGS** for whatever that's worth.