Well...Hello, Doctor! Yes, HELLO, DOCTOR! S4 E13 Spoilers

[rabid1st]

Yes! Again! One more time into the trenches, my friends!

My apologies that this is so long...but it's worth it, I promise. Optimism Reigns in RabidWorld

Also...below the cut very minor spoilers for Wall-E and speculation on the 2008 Christmas Special. Oh...and I am an embarrassment to my family for my foolish, cock-eyed optimism...I once wrote an essay about Joss Whedon claiming he was a kind and benevolent god...BWAHAHAHA!

But my companion loves me so who cares! :grin:

I've just come back from treating my sister to a movie: Wall-E

Those of you who have seen it...sing along with me...now...

Put on your Sunday clothes, there's lots of world out there
Get out the brillantine and dime cigars
We're gonna find adventure in the evening air
Girls in white
In a perfumed night
Where the lights are bright as the stars!

Put on your Sunday clothes, we're gonna ride through town
In one of those new horsedrawn open cars

We'll see the shows
At Delmonico's
And we'll close the town in a whirl
And we won't come home until we've kissed a girl!



No, we won't come home until we've kiiiiiiiiisssed...a girl!

He never kissed his girl, folks. He just didn't. Some other guy was kissed BY her. But he never kissed his girl. And so...let's look at everything for a moment. Because...It only...takes a moment...to love your whole life through. :grin:

Sorry...I'll stop! Wall-E isn't really the point.

Or maybe it is.

Because Wall-E is about hope. Hope is the point. Currently, we have none in Doctor Who. We have seen the Doctor's future and it is bleak. He does indeed become the Valeyard. He IS the Valeyard, now. The darkness was coming...before. But now it is here and the Doctor's most faithful companion, Hope, is dead. Donna got to live...but at such a cost. Like she told Rose in Turn Left..."You LIAR! You told me I was special."

No, wait, I hear some 'glass is half full' people saying...we don't know that Donna isn't happy. And there's River...there's always some glimmer of hope left. We can all keep watching and maybe...maybe the Time Lords will be back. Yeah! That would be cool. Or maybe there's Jenny or another companion he could REALLY love. Not like that chav, Rose, she was never good enough for him anyway. Maybe something will make it all better.

But we know how River Song ends. The Ood certainly might have been talking about her...or maybe Rose and his hope of seeing her again...that song has ended, too. Another song begins...but we know how it will end...with the Doctor alone. His song was supposed to end...remember? But it just keeps repeating.

But that's the bittersweet beauty of it all, right? He sacrifices his own happiness for love...again and again...and again. But, it is all a matter of perspective...we can make it look happy if we fic it just right...right? We can just pretend that the Master is his true love, really, and one day HE will return...and then the show will be better. Well, until the Master dies or is lost in another universe...or something. But that's the point of the show...it just keeps changing and we move on...yes? And the Doctor keeps getting less and less human...yeah! More and more God-like that will be really cool, right?

Wait! This was about HOPE. Hope and Donna! That's right...it's about Donna. Not Rose. While we were waiting for Wall-E to start, I asked my sister if she could have 40 years of thinking she was nothing much and probably never have a husband or children or a career...but still she'd be alive and with people who love her. OR she could travel the world, have marvelous adventures and know she was important to everybody...loved by them and had saved them all...but she would have to die in 1 year. Which life would she pick?

My sister picked 40 years of nothing special life.

Ah...so it is settled, then. Many fans of Doctor Who would also pick that...many fans would pick the life Rose has now...with humanTen who can give her babies and grow old by her side. Many fans would dump Rose and go have wild bondage sex with Jack or the Master...or Jack AND the Master. And in this ending...RTD maybe tried to make us all happy...and fell a little short of that.

But here's the deal breaker...for all of the fans...and my sister.

What if you didn't get to pick? This is what I asked my sister next...what if someone ELSE got to pick which life you would lead?

This is what is essentially wrong with Doctor Who right now. Donna was begging him not to take her memories. Beyond that...Donna really...REALLY loved being special...and being out there traveling. She wanted to TRAVEL forever. The Doctor played God. He was a benevolent God...yes. He acted out of love to save Donna's life. But given the choice...maybe Donna would have picked death. She was begging him not to take her memories...and she said she DID know what was happening to her. He gave her what he wanted her to have...a normal life, a life without him in it.

He didn't know how long she'd have...maybe not 40 years...maybe only 10 or 2...but he believed she would be with people who love her. People who would have to lie to her for the rest of her days. People who he knew had made her feel small and worthless before but who he hoped would treat her better now.

And maybe they will...maybe Donna's mum will treat Donna well...now. Maybe 10.2 who has Donna's love of adventure and travel doesn't really want to "get out there" but is content in this landlocked life his twin brother has chosen for him. Maybe Rose is going to find happiness now that she has a Doctor who can say the right words.

The Doctor is a kind and benevolent God. He gave his children what he thought they needed to be happy. He arranged a perfect little Eden for them...gave the most beloved among them a helpmate. And all he took away from them was their free will...their right to decide if they wanted to live for 40 seconds or 40 years. If they wanted to travel or stay home with the pre-fab family and little man in his own image.

Russell T. Davies is an atheist, according to many sources. He might give Christmas presents...many atheists do...but I seriously doubt that he believes some non-human lonely god should have the right to decide how people are going to live out their lives.

So...I'm back...holding out hope...that RTD knows that making the Doctor into a god...is what the Old School canon calls for...because the Valeyard is in the canon. But it's not a good idea to have someone as powerful as the Doctor believe that he can dictate how his companions should live...when they leave, who they marry, if they can have their memories or not...etc.

He's on the wrong path. River was a sign of that...he didn't recognize the man she was describing...but it IS this man he's become. So, here's to It's a Wonderful Life at Christmas...where the Doctor sees very clearly the man he will one day be...a cold man who believes he knows what is best for everyone else and who also believes it is okay to manipulate them into "What's best"...just like he manipulated River by giving her his screwdriver...and she thought it meant he cared. He's a man who will never be anything but alone. Not because he can't have a life...but because he rejects life and love and happiness.

Here's hoping he heads off his future by going back to Donna and asking her what SHE wants for Christmas. Not what her Grandpa wants for her. Not what her Mum wants or the Doctor wants. But what DONNA NOBLE wants.

Donna wants to be that person in the stars, doesn't she? That special person. In Turn Left, she was willing to die to be that person again.

So the Doctor made a mistake, the same one lots of well meaning people make...they give the people they love...a gift they want. The Doctor wants a normal life...and he just keeps giving it to other people...River, Rose, Jack, 10.2, even DONNA...who wanted to be special just for a moment. She begged him not to take it away from her...but he knew best!

So...I say...at Christmas...the Doctor gets a dose of humility and goes back to ask everyone what they want. In case anybody doesn't know...

1) Rose just wants to be with HER Doctor and know that he isn't all on his own anymore. She always asks the same question, "What about you?"
2) Donna wants to travel the universe...see the stars with her good buddy, the Doctor.
3) 10.2...is part Donna...so even if Donna dies...her sense of adventure will live on in him, which means he probably wants to travel and see the stars and have a good time, too.
4) 10...wants nothing else in the universe but to be with Rose Tyler.

And we are back to Wall-E and what he knows. And what, at this point, RTD appears to have missed.

It's what the Doctor has yet to learn about the human experience...that withering and dying isn't so bad. We all die at the end. It doesn't matter to Rose if he ages with her or has human parts. It doesn't matter to Donna if she has 40 more years or 40 seconds.

What matters is that people be allowed to live the life they decide to live. You can wait 40 years for nothing...but...

It only takes a moment...to be loved your whole life long.



Rae

Comments

[thisficklemob.livejournal.com]

One other thing that was off... as someone else pointed out, forget who... was what made Donna special. In the Doctor's manic description of it, she's special because of her Doctorification. She's special when she becomes part him.

Now, you know I didn't watch this season, but by all accounts, including the Doctor's, Donna did many fabulous things this season, saved lives, was "brilliant." Her awesomeness was not dependent on her being Doctor-Donna.

This episode somewhat reduced her to the Doctor's Virgin Mary. Which is... irksome. Even though I never got a chance to fall for her before.

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

It is funny you should mention the Virgin Mary...because the River we all keep talking about...died on a throne with a crown of thorns on her head. Just as the Doctor was lifted up by angels in the LAST Christmas special.

And all of this...all of this lonely God business started after he lost Rose. Ten was always an arrogant bastard...a no second chances kind of man...the last line of authority in the universe. But before Rose left...he stopped short of playing god...since then...he's been on this path of darkness. He's far more wounded and alone than his half-human self if you ask me.

And far more dangerous...I think having a bit of Donna Noble in you...might keep you from getting above yourself. She could swat you from the inside of your head. ;->

But maybe that's just me.

Rae

[credilya.livejournal.com]

My god. I've been singing it all day. And since my mother was a voice major let's just say the pair of us are driving the household nuts. I have a live in duet partner.

Also everything about Who. Yes, yes and more yes. I feel every jumble of emotions enough to make me feel carsick.

[princessblue791.livejournal.com]

There is also one more thing. Before the finale I was listening to all the Christmas songs and they all followed exactly what the Doctor was feeling. The last one was from that Titanic eppie. In it, it said something along the line of " next year he'll be in bed with his love." Or something close to it. The one before that was telling us the Doctor was tired of traveling. Almost a heartache poem to Rose. I used to think that the Christmas songs were cheesy, but I'm begining to think that maybe they're telling us something.

One more thing. If it doesn't happen at Christmas, don't dismiss it until the four parter. I could tell you why but you don't like spoilers.

[(Anonymous)]

I personally can't give up on Rose. Somehow, somewhere Ten will get to be with Rose. I like to believe that when he regenerates, he gets to wake up in the arms of the woman he loves. His soul goes to Rose and then Eleven can be free of being heartsick. (We don't want him to regressed to back to where he was before Rose or Donna)
The Human Doctor has enough of Donna in him that he will be eager for the same things she was. Marriage, adventure, family. Donna lives on through him and through everyone who met her. Donna will always be fantastic and she'll live an amazing life.
Please, don't lose hope in Rose/Ten! I love your stories too much for that to happen!

[fidesangelus.livejournal.com]

Child of the Disney generation checking in to say you are brilliant. ;) I think that the question about if the choice was taken from you makes all the difference. I truly believe that if Rose was given a choice she would choose her Doctor every time. What I'm realizing bothered me about that scene was the fact that the Doctor didn't even give her an option of staying with him. She made that choice back in Doomsday and he didn't honor it. Just assumed that her place was in the alternate universe now. And he was giving her a band-aid so that he could convince himself she'd be happier now.

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

I can't get it out of my head either. I keep singing and humming it...that is just so wrong. Wrong in a different way than Doctor Who has gone wrong...but wrong never-the-less.

I will pet you and tell you that there is a very, very simple fix to all that has gone wrong on Who...and I feel RTD is going to use it at Christmas. And then he will bring the Time Lords back before he goes...and regenerate Ten, too, I think.

Rae

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

Hello, oh, anonymous person! I am glad that you love my stories. And I'll tell you something...this is so easy to fix...and your finger is almost right on the button nose of it.

His soul going to Rose...and the regeneration into Eleven being important, too. I think that what we have here is a huge window of possibility and all the Doctor has to do is see that EVERYONE should have a choice about how they live...him included.

Rae

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

Exactly...this is what he did before...to Sarah Jane...to River...and he tried twice now to do it with Rose. She doesn't go away quietly and live the happy life. She just keeps coming back to him. This is something Billie Piper knows about the character...and so...she can't give up on Rose/Doctor either.

Rae
happy to hear you think I'm brilliant...drinks a half-full glass of optimism with you.

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

Hmmm...now I wonder what you know. I think I know what you know...which is that RTD intends to bring the Time Lords back...and so there is hope that they will help Ten go to Rose. But that's not where I think HOPE lies...so I'm not sure knowing that would help me feel better.

I do know that all the Christmas songs talk about Ten and Rose and their love story...and that line is..."He said, 'Borrow or steal, I'll find a way, to be with my lover next Christmas Day." Which, of course, could mean that he borrowed or stole some of Donna and now IS with his lover...but I will hang my hat on the "next Christmas Day" part of the song...and hold out hope until Christmas.

'Cause I think I know exactly what he will be borrowing. I don't believe he will have to steal it.

Rae
wondering if she wants to be spoiled...I don't mind being spoiled for a show I've given up on...but let's just wait until after Christmas to say I've given up on the Doctor...okay?

I'm glad...

[frodolass.livejournal.com]

So very glad to have you back. ^__^

I was feeling really down and angry about everything earlier today, and for a while there I think I became convinced that hope really was dead.

But this, right here. This makes a whole lot of sense. It brings back those very first initial feelings I felt seconds after watching the episode, before my husband and mother started in with the railing negativity that only carried on into the internets. My husband did get one thing right from the start, though. He said this felt like the end of a chapter, not the end of a story. And I agree, I can see this developing exactly along the lines you have spoken of.

Funny how this morning I woke up with the song of the Ood that sounded when the TARDIS was towing the Earth home, all playing in my head. I didn't know why of all the things in the episode, that music was the only thing that brought me to tears, where as last week I was sobbing continuously from the moment I knew Harriet Jones was going to die (loved that woman to bits, and I still think she was right all along). But now I think I know why it was the song of the Ood that got to me, because that was a song about freedom from the oppression that ruled their lives for so long, a song about life and love and hope.

Maybe this is the song we should be hearing from now on instead of the sadness of the Doctor's Time Lord theme, the song of a lonely god. Because I agree with many that he was making all the decisions for Rose, himself, and Donna. It feels somehow the same as the way he used to be in the old days, taking and leaving companions when he felt it was time, going all the way back to the day he locked Susan out of the TARDIS and probably even very first day when he kidnapped Barbara and Ian. It all feels more corrupted now, very like the Time Lords of old. They took away Jamie and Zoe's memories and sent them home because they believed they knew best. And now the Doctor is doing it too, even when Donna is begging him not to.

This has to stop. There is no way he can continue like this without losing himself and becoming the Valyard. Something has got to give.

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[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

It's good to be back. I don't think RTD is the sort of person who would say that the Doctor should play god. He actually said just the opposite in S1 and S2. Which, btw, means 10.2 knows better...even if he DID kill the Daleks. 10.2 knows he's not God.

10.2 knows that he's part Donna Noble...lovable and fallible...he's more the Doctor than 10 is now. He has the battlescars and such...but he's not a lonely god. And there-in...I think...lies our fix...you can't physically cross the dimensional barriers...but you can cross them mentally. The Doctor did that to reach Rose before...I bet he could trade places spiritually...with 10.2...be human until that body dies. And let 10.2 figure out how to bring the Time Lords back...because you know Donna would think of something brilliant.

Then...at the regeneration...maybe 10 is pulled back into the body...or maybe it regenerates into something completely new...half-human on his mother's side. Sort of. :smirk:

Rae

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[wickedgillie.livejournal.com]

You woke up with the Song of the Ood in your head too? Wow. At least now I don't feel quite so bonkers!

I wonder how many of us there are?

And yes, that song is chock full of hope. Ten, are you listening?

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[frodolass.livejournal.com]

Never did like that line in the Eighth Doctor movie, but wouldn't it be cool if in the almost-regeneration, Ten sent all of his human-side into the hand and that's the real reason why hand!Doctor is half/mostly-human? XD Aside from being completely cracky, it would make some kind a sense why he was the one who was able to say "I love you" while proper!Ten, now lacking anything human, is no longer able to like he would have in Doomsday.

Kinda off topic, but I miss crack speculation.

[wickedgillie.livejournal.com]

Rae, I would snog you silly if I was a girl-snogger. Which I'm not. Not that there's anything wrong with that ;)

I think hope is the key. It's what Caan stole. It's what's coming home for Christmas this year. I believe. I believe. I believe.

Also, on Donna, while Ten DID take her choice from her, I do think he knew how far gone she was. Her empathy and intuition, the things that made her so utterly remarkable, were gone. She was more timelord than human at that point. Ten needed her to be, well, HER just then, and she wasn't, and I think that impacted his decision that she was better as she was before. I also think that toward the end, HandTen was more human than timelord. He became more and more subdued, bounced off less walls, became more unsure of himself. I wish there was a way to reunite the DoctorDonna and the DonnaDoctor and heal their brokenness too.

Me, too...

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

...okay...are we all somehow connected to RTD...or Murray Gold?

I'm not kidding...I also woke up this morning with that theme in my head. And I would say...it is about that moment with everyone onboard...the Doctor's family together...and his song of loneliness might have ended there...if he'd let it.

And I might add...if you watch that scene...Ten is beaming at Rose and nudging her shoulder and he hugs her and Rose...while 10.2...and Donna drift to the side and smile at it all.

That's how the song should end...if you ask me...with the Doctor being where he belongs and 10.2 and Donna being where they belong.

Rae
sending the message to RTD via the Song of the Ood.

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

There is a way...I know the way. I think 10.2 doesn't belong in that other universe. He lost part of who he was when Donna left...he IS like a conjoined twin. He can carry her on inside him...but not if he's sealed away from her. And it is just possible that he could have saved Donna when 10 could not. That he could have taken back what was his.

Anyway...yes...Dalek Caan thinks he's killed hope...I think. And I believe RTD can restore hope to us...at Christmas.

Oh...and I will take your virtual snogging, because there is a little bit of Jack in me.

Rae

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[amybtvsfreak.livejournal.com]

That's my feelings exactly. I don't see this as a close of a story, just the close of a chapter. We don't know what RTD has cooked up for the specials, nor do we know what Moffat has cooked up for future seasons.

This NewWho story began with Rose for a reason, and I'm willing to see it carried through to the end.

A story isn't nearly as interesting if everything is puppies and rainbows all the time! There is a reason for the angst and the emotions. It's a journey for the Doctor...and Rose is a part of that journey.

Perhaps he does become that god (what doctor doesn't have a god complex?) that feels he can play with other people's lives.

We don't know that Rose's journey is over. He says that the worlds are sealed off forever, but he's been wrong a couple of times already (Rise of the Cybermen and Season 4), as we can see from Rose's return. Her enduring love for him, in spite of his "playing god" may end up saving him from himself if/when he becomes the Valeyard.

Perhaps he may learn what most of us humans have, over time: "Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

Yeah...I hated it too...and thought they might address it

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

And they did...because 10 says that he is all Time Lord...no humans allowed in the club. But 10.2 is half-human/half-time lord...so...if I'm right about the save...then, Donna dies...and the Doctor DOES end up...half-human on his Donna-side. Just not physically human maybe...but enough to know what love is...so to speak.

Rae
now down to quoting rock ballads

[wickedgillie.livejournal.com]

Oh...and I will take your virtual snogging, because there is a little bit of Jack in me.

Can I snog him too, pls?

Re: Me, too...

[ladyofgallifrey.livejournal.com]

You know how I feel about all this. I think you nailed it with the whole 'hope' thing - with all the other things going on in my life, this just added to an overwhelming sense of a loss of hope. Since Saturday, I've been avoiding all comms (except my own) and just reading your LJ because you always seem to give me sound arguments and if nothing else, a theraputic balm. I almost started crying yesterday when I read your other post where you mentioned you had cried Saturday. This was not the catharsis that we deserved - it might have been closure, but it really is ragged and bleeding if you ask me.

I do not see how 10.2 (or TenDonna as I call him) can function unless he is merged back with the other half of himself which is DonnaTen (or DonnaDoctor). Put them back together, get one whole Time Lord who can "mind the store" while Ten takes Rose on a long cruise on some ocean planet...

Well...someone said...

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

...it can't all be puppies and rainbows all the time. But why the hell does it have to be eternal disappointment? That's what I'm asking...right now we have only the hope we can manufacture in our imagination.

But...but...if Ten does ask everyone what THEY want...if he stops playing God. Then, I think that he might say what it is he meant to say on that beach. And maybe it wasn't I love you...after all. Maybe it was..."Rose Tyler, I...

...want to stay with you forever, too."

Because she already KNOWS he loves her...doesn't she? But nobody knows that secret he harbors deep inside...that he wants to be an ordinary person.

Rae

[webeh.livejournal.com]

3) 10.2...is part Donna...so even if Donna dies...her sense of adventure will live on in him, which means he probably wants to travel and see the stars and have a good time, too.

I think Human!Doctor wants to hang out with Donna too. In the last episode, the pair just seemed to really get each other.

*sulks... What I wouldn't give to see Donna/Doctor together again talking smack to each other. I don't know why, but I've become really fond of the Doctor's annoyed (Ex. "Donnnnaaa!") voice. The one he only uses on Donna because she talks back to him.

I hope in Moffatt's first season, we get someone as fun as Donna. Also, I kind of want companions to start lasting longer than a season. It's kind of depressing how he keeps ending up by himself in the finale. (On TWOP, someone suggested a companion that pretty much grows up travelling with the Doctor.)

[webeh.livejournal.com]

He never kissed his girl, folks. He just didn't. Some other guy was kissed BY her.

Yup. But on a side note, I'm completely amused by what Confidential showed us. Those two really went at it and very little of it showed up in the episode. That's why I'm not too crazy about close-ups in make-out scenes. We need to see body language because it tells the audience a lot about what the characters are feeling.

[rabid1st.livejournal.com]

Oh...btw...my secret happy ending...also explains that passionate kiss. I'm wondering if that kiss is going to get air-time later.

Rae